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Nick Kyrgios says he “genuinely contemplated” suicide and spent time in a psychiatric hospital in London after losing at Wimbledon in 2019.<\/span><\/p>\n The Australian, 28, was knocked out by Rafael Nadal in the second round.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n Kyrgios said he later got a sleeve tattoo on his right arm to cover up evidence of self-harm.<\/span><\/p>\n “I was drinking, abusing drugs, I hated the kind of person I was,” he said in the documentary Break Point, which covers his run to the 2022 final.<\/span><\/p>\n “I lost at Wimbledon. I woke up and my dad was sitting on the bed, full-blown crying. That was the big wake-up call for me.<\/span><\/p>\n “I was like, OK, I can’t keep doing this. I ended up in a psych ward in London to figure out my problems.”<\/span><\/p>\n In February last year Kyrgios posted on Instagram about his mental health, saying he had had “suicidal thoughts” and “struggled to get out of bed” in 2019, pointing out self-harm marks on his arm in a photo from the Australian Open.<\/span><\/p>\n “I was genuinely contemplating if I wanted to commit suicide,” he says in the documentary, due to be released on Netflix later this month.<\/span><\/p>\n “That pressure, having that ‘all eyes on you’ expectation, I couldn’t deal with it. I hated the kind of person I was.<\/span><\/p>\n “I lost my relationship with my family, pushed all my close friends away.<\/span><\/p>\n “You could tell I was hurting. My whole arm was covered in scars. That’s why I actually got my arm sleeve, to cover it all.”<\/span><\/p>\n The post on Instagram said he was “proud to say I’ve completely turned myself around” and that he doesn’t “take one moment for granted”.<\/span><\/p>\n After reaching the final of Wimbledon last year, where he was beaten by 23-time Grand Slam champion Novak Djokovic, Kyrgios sustained a knee injury which resulted in him having surgery to repair a small tear in his left lateral meniscus in January.<\/span><\/p>\n He returned to the court for the first time on Tuesday at the Stuttgart Open in Germany, where he lost to China’s Wu Yibing in the opening round.<\/span><\/p>\n If you, or someone you know, have been affected by any issues raised in this article, support and information is available at <\/em>BBC Action Line.<\/span><\/a> You can also contact the Samaritans on a free helpline at 116 123, or <\/em>visit the website.<\/span>